water protectors pendant

if you know me or have been following here for awhile you might know that i'm a proud north dakotan. i grew up 45 miles north of standing rock. the heartache i feel for my home state and it's people is hard to summarize. my homeland is a bedrock for my inspiration. i fell in love with my husband on the banks of the missouri river. i go home as often as possible and it still never feels like enough.

100% of the profits of this necklace will be donated to the water protectors at oceti sakowin camp in standing rock, north dakota. it's snowing heavily there right now with expectations to hit 12" with gusty winds and blizzard like conditions. 

the water protectors pendant is genuine turquoise on gold plated fine brass chain. it hangs 18". a great layering piece that goes with anything. it's priced affordably for all at $28. i hope together we can team up and open our hearts to them. 

still coping

how are you coping post-election? what are you doing? the start of wednesday was rough. i sat down to try and resume making jewelry (holiday orders!) but it's very challenging to make small things with tears in your eyes/out of focus. also, you guys don't deserve that energy on your jewelry. i moved onto an ugly paperwork pile/excel file that didn't require much of my thought. i waited for what seemed like forever to hear hillary's speech to start. listened to her + cried. listened to obama + cried. chuckled at joe biden. i read + saw things on social media. that was ok. solidarity. but my takeaway is that we're all processing it differently. on our time. in our own way. and isn't that obvious? i don't want to read anymore chiding of each other "to do it this way" and "get over it + stand up". i'm so happy for you to stand up so quickly. i've had that in moments too + it felt exhilarating to be back up there. i came back down pretty quickly. please know, you might fall down again + that's ok. no judgement. just move though it.

there were unexpected beautiful parts. and isn't that the stuff of life? i came upstairs in the morning + was almost surprised to see the bright sun. so stupid but true. later in my quite-ness i could hear the sound of children playing. it's odd, but i've never enjoyed the sound of children playing (it always seems to be loud screaming? haa). i say it's odd because i very much want children. those little voices helped. the check-ins from family + friends. the amount of i love you's + then realizing that was happening on a huge scale with others made my heart swell. later jon + i walked downtown to the protest. we needed people. we watched. we read signs. we marched + yelled stuff. i cried again when i saw a group of senior women marching together. wondering how many times have they done this? so sorry this didn't happen for them. again. jon + i walked back. had friend chicken sandwiches + ginger beers. comfort food. when we got home we got into a hilarious conversation with friends. i actually belly laughed + was so shocked while it was happening. small. little beautiful moments filled me back up. we put on a documentary about house cats + fell asleep to it.

yesterday was back to a normal work schedule. so thankful for that. i struggled a bit because i'm used to streaming NPR, but i can't listen to the analyzation just yet. i typed in "light jazz" to spotify. lol. my usual spotify list is kendrick lamar. but i can't hear the truth right now. eventually i settled on a playlist called "lush vibes". another lol. later on that evening i met a friend at a winona laduke lecture. an economist/environmentalist/native american rights writer + activist. one of my thoughts that has settled in after a couple days of thinking is that i want to seek the knowledge of wise women. i want to sit at their feet and learn. i want to fill my tank back up so i can turn around + have more to give. because i'm feeling pretty drained. and that's ok. 

i'm thankful that i'm seeing these words more often now: healing, listening, loving, togetherness. my very dear friend shared this buddhist teaching very early on wednesday morning when the grief was so heavy: hatred never ceases by hatred, but by love alone is healed. i'm doing my best to keep centering around those words. even after i called him president elect human garbage fire. i'm working on it.

hope you're doing ok. hope you're finding your ways. hope you're nice to yourself + others. 

basic shapes earrings: the secret message

when i hear the lyrics to sorry. when i sing along to BOY BYE there is only one person i'm thinking of. it's been my own little form of therapy that came about organically after seeing the formation world tour this summer. of course beyonce was ahh-mazing (and her album has been on repeat so hard this year) but one of the most important moments that night was when rae sremmurd took to the stage in chicago to say F**K donald trump. all of us together. repeating it. yelling it so loud. an entire stadium pushing back against this heinous man & his destructive words/actions. 

the balance of simple geometric shapes is at the core of my work. i prefer a circle to an oval, a square to a rectangle and an equilateral triangle to an isosceles or obtuse one. even the name. equilateral. equal. equality!! the mathematical perfection of those shapes feels like honesty that i pepper throughout my collection. not long after that night i realized the letters BOY BYE could be simplified into shapes. after time spent arranging/re-arranging & playing with the scale they were finally done.

i’m already planning my election day outfit. it feels like armor that i’ll need to get through the day. the basic shapes earrings. pins. pins. so many pins. this hat. maybe these socks. gold sneaks for winning. a crystal for good energy. a blazer that references a pants suit. a stick of palo santo to carry around & burn when i need to stay calm. idk. i'm nervous already. 

it's a lot of a lewk, but hey, i aint sorry. middle fingers up. BOY BYE.

spring outfits

oh my favorite game of outfit planning. with equal parts reality (air max's i own) and fantasy (simone rocha heels i would love to own). i used lots of the new madewell spring pieces + cursive jewelry. (come pick out your own outfit/jewelry pairings this thursday eve at the cursive trunk show at the chicago madewell. 932 n. rush from 6-8 pm!)

this is so similar to my everyday outfit. i refer to it as comfy goth with a pop of color. not long ago i used to wear more color and pattern but the last couple years i gravitated to a mostly all black wardrobe with the pops of color isolated to: shoes, makeup and jewelry. it's easy. it's a uniform. all the pieces match each other therefore my morning choices are so streamlined. i can work in a dirty jewelry studio all day and no one knows if some polishing compound accidentally got on my sleeve. i throw on a blazer and some eyeliner and i'm out the door. i do have a madewell bucket bag in this brown color and i own those nike air max's. huge fan of that color combo of black, caramel and neon crimson.  (jeans, sweatshirt, dot & line necklace, mates necklace, backpack, chicago over everything else hat, air max's, lip gloss)

tassels, tassels, all of the tassels. tassels are everywhere and i'm so into them. can they be on more things please? has anyone tried a nail art tassel? just sayin.. lately i've been into the half date night/half group friend hang night. you get your one on one time and your social needs met. you're covering so many bases in one night that you feel so dang proud of yourself come bedtime. i'd wear this to eat some chongqing chicken and then group karaoke the entire boyz II men catalogue. (leather jacket, bodysuit, pants, bag, loafers, supermoon necklace, tassel bracelet, lipstick)

i've got a few weddings to go to this summer. that mega mobile necklace is so easy to throw on for a yes! fancy! vibe. a new thing for me this year is: eye makeup. i'm serious. completely ignored it before. let's be honest though. i'm going to aim for these adelle eyes and then proceed to get tear-y during the ceremony and mess them up. i'm such a sap. this iphone cover is a crucial hint to the happy couple. i will be clinking that water glass to make you kiss. uhh repeatedly. the perfect simone rocha heals that allow you to get your damn groove on. i can't be bothered by a flimsy little sandal or stiletto when a dance floor is around. and i hate that whole bring a pair of flats thing. why though? when there are so many great stacked heels out there. (dress, bag, simone rocha heels, iphone cover, mega mobile necklace, lip gloss

a simple running around town outfit that still feels polished. hells yes to this caron callahan for madewell denim jacket. it's just too perfect. i love the combo of a stacked heel and a baseball hat. it's that combo of feminine/masculine i'm always drawn to. (i don't own this hat *yet* but i've been stalking them for months to catch when it re-stocks. it's so important to me that i almost didn't post it cuz FOMO. *but* i live down the block from their shop and i'm betting i've got the jump on this.) this necklace is on heavy rotation lately. the herkimer crystals on the strands i picked out in tucson are all so unique and special. (jacket, pants, bag, shoes, hat, force field necklace, circle bracelet)

i love to take all day walks around town. start in the hood and wander through fulton market snacking along the way to downtown. hop on the blue line and connect to the 606 trail and follow that up to logan square for dinner. pat on the back because my fitness app is clocking major mileage and i can EAT PIE. i'm layered up for all weather here. i'm blocking sun off my face. i'm making good choices. (jacket, top, jeans, sneakers, hat, bag, color theory necklace, triple triangle pendant)

if you're in the chicago area. come check out the trunk show this thursday for sips, bites & discounts! i'll have some new jewelry and score 20% off your madewell order. 932 n. rush st. 6-8pm. facebook event here.

super bloom

what are your top web searches? (minus using it for spell check. cuz duh.) lately, mine are various weather phenomena and staying on top of the monotone sneaker scene. death valley national park is currently experiencing a super bloom of more than 20 different wildflowers due to record breaking rain last october. bah! so gorgeous.

and for a little temperature contrast check out the ice stacking that took place on lake superior last weekend. the video is 100% something you should click on. 

the importance of solo travel

at the end of last year i decided it would be good to do a solo trip to arcosanti in arizona. i've travelled on my own before of course (business trips & etc) but those have always been full of meetings, trunk shows, material sourcing + catching a quick bite with others. i had never done the plunk yourself down in the middle of nowhere with no one - see some beauty/get awed - just for yourself kind of travel. that realization made me feel..  well..  sad. so, i booked it. the time was now and maybe the time was awhile ago but lets just move forward. 

after a business trip to the gem show in tucson i was cruising down the road playing dreams + sorry on repeat. fully geek'd up/out loud singing and marveling at saguaro shapes. vibes were high and i was hitting all imagined cliched benchmarks of rom-com woman-on-her-own. i'd say i did really well for the first 24 hours. the architectural/landscape visual orgasm of arcosanti hits you immediately and takes over all senses. it was GD super bowl sunday and here i was in the middle of the desert in a 70's design/utopic/artist in residence dreamscape. they were celebrating the chinese new year in the cafe with zero whispers of american football. so, yah, i was into it. i'm a monkey/fish so things were clicking already and i knew i'd catch bey slay online later. 

the next morning i was UP and AT EM. did the full tour of the grounds. took pictures. watched the residents do a bronze pour (wooo! jewelry dork'n big time.) had lunch in the beautiful cafe. did a little sketching. read a chapter of my book. tried to move forward on a little art project. then.. um. what. thennnnnnn. whattttttt. the last part of that day was kind of drift-y and i was a little lost and pretty dissapointed with the feels i was feelin. i wish i could have chilled out about that + released myself from the pressure of: oh-my-god-you're-HERE-enjoy-IT-NOW. the next morning i realized: oh yeh. duh. this is meant to be slower and contemplative. chill plz. in the days that followed i did some business planning, finished a little installation-y sculpture, started on new designs based on gem show purchases, got some reading in (which felt kind of major. ha.) took a side trip to the GC, explored more of the beautiful grounds, warmed my winter bones in the sun and capped it off with an epic 365 degree sunset over-looking the vaults and cypress trees

in the end i learned it may take some time to adjust but DAMN solo trips are important for your soul and i'm starting to place a higher value on that.